The Gate

by Candy Lee

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This is Candy Lee's first full-length album. It is a project of music, art, and philosophy. This album explores the progress of human consciousness and thought, as experienced by Candy Lee. It is the story of the hero's journey to enlightenment. The album art that accompanies the music is an illustrated storybook of this journey.

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released August 26, 2010

Jennifer Graham- bass guitar
Warren Dietzel- mandolin
Dan Dean- djembe/snare
Miles Ralston- lead guitar on track 4

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Candy Lee Fayetteville, Arkansas

Candy Lee is an award winning, "golden voiced" singer/songwriter who combines her love for folk, jazz, and indie music to create her own original style. The first thing you'll notice when you hear Candy Lee is her voice- timeless, entrancing, and ethereal. She Lee pulls you in with her sweet, catchy melodies and moving music, but it is her smart, creative lyrics that deserve a second listen. ... more

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Track Name: Blue Skies
Lyrics:

There is a cloud above my head, above my head.
It is not white, orange, or red.
These blacks and grays, they follow me.
I wish they would not bother me.
I try to blow them all away, but they just stay.

Happy go lucky, happy is what I want to be.
I’ll take what may come, but I won’t dare let it take me.

Well I know it’ll all be okay.
Negative things can reflect in a positive way.
And I know I’ll make it through
‘Cause when I see grey skies, I look forward to blue.
Track Name: Experiences
Lyrics:

The Past is a journey I cannot forget,
Every smile, every wave, every beautiful sunset.
We’ve grown apart for reasons understood.
The sacrifices made weren’t good, good enough.

Time will heal the wounds, but I will never forget you.
I can’t forget you.

You’ll never know how beautiful you are.
You’ll always hold a place in my heart.
We’ve grown apart for reasons understood.
I wish I could save you , I wish that I could, make a mends.

Time will heal the wounds, but I will never forget you.
I can’t forget you.

I wouldn’t be who I am today, if I had never met you.
Experiences shape who we are, so I know that I’ve shaped you too.
You’ve got to take the good with the bad.
I know that I have. I know that I have.

The Past is a journey I cannot forget---
Every smile, every wave, every beautiful sunset.
We’ve grown apart for reasons understood.
The sacrifices made weren’t good, good enough.

Time will heal the wounds, but I will never forget you.
I can’t forget you.
Track Name: Why
Lyrics:

Often I sit alone in the corner and stare
Off into a reality that’s not even there.
Why aren’t this world and my world the same?
Tell me why. Tell me why.
Seems so easy, from my point of view.

Sometimes I wonder why I utter a word.
Freedom of speech doesn’t guarantee you’ll ever be heard.
No one listens anymore.
Tell me why. Tell me why.
Why has ignorance come to be bliss?

Sometimes I want to give up.
Sometimes I want to give in.
To take it all back and erase my memory,
But there’s no going back from where I am.

I must go on. I must move on.
Track Name: Worst Enemy
Lyrics:

History repeats
I find myself
My own worst enemy
Tell me what it takes
To learn from my own
From my own mistakes

Well, no one knows just how to screw me over like I do
Cause it’s nothing new
No it’s nothing new
Oh

Here I go again
I find myself
In the same old predicament
How do I do it?
I wish for once
That I could just be prudent

Well, no one knows just how to screw me over like I do
Cause it’s nothing new
No it’s nothing new
Oh

Why does it have to be this way?
Why is there a constant struggle
Always happening in my brain?
Why do I have to be so fickle?
All I need is just a little
Just a little bit of guidance

But if I had it
Would I take it?

So see here’s the trouble
Inside of me resides a little devil
Who pushes my buttons
And feeds my ego
And makes selfish decisions

Well, no one knows just how to screw me over like I do
Cause it’s nothing new
No it’s nothing new
And no one knows just how to screw me over
Quite like me
‘Cause I’m my own
My own worst enemy

Why does it have to be this way?
Why is there a constant struggle
Always happening in my brain?
Why do I have to be so foolish?
All I need is just not to miss
The signs that are in my view

But if I saw them
Would I know what to do?
Track Name: Another Island
Lyrics:

I’m hanging on by my fingernails
The faster they grow, it seems
The faster they break

I’ve no reason to stay
So I’ll dismount this cliff side
And fall into
The ocean unknown

The grass is greener, dear
One the other island
Far across the sea
I have no boat but I
I will try to swim there
Maybe somewhere happiness
Is waiting for me

They waves, they crash and tumble and turn
And pull on my body
The water is so dark
I can’t see my own feet below me
I feel I can’t go on
My eyelids have grown heavy
As I fall into the unconscious

Wake up, Wake up
The sea monster said
Wake up, Wake up
You’re surely not dead
I’ve got you chained here
In my cave of the deep
I’ll let you go when
You find what you seek

And I said
Oh oh, oh oh,
What ever do you mean?
How can I find anything
When I’m trapped under the sea
When I’m trapped under the sea
Under the sea
Under the sea

Well, the hours turned to days
And the days turned to weeks
And in the depths of my solitude I found
Inner peace
Mmmmm

The grass is green right here
And there is no island
It’s all part of the same thing
Everything that I want
I already have and am
I am it and it is me
Track Name: I Am
Lyrics:

Who knows what tomorrow will bring?
Will the sun rise? Will the songbirds sing?
Will I cry, or will I smile?
Make the best of it, or let life pass me by?
It’s mine to decide.

‘Cause I am that I am.
Not some power in the sky
Or ruler from on high.
I am that I am.
Not some power in the sky
Or ruler from on high.
I am.

Who is to say the wrongs that I’ve done?
That I have sinned to God?
When God and are one?
It’s all a matter of intention.
Whether mine is pure or not, that is the question.
And I’ll take it on.

‘Cause I am that I am.
Not some power in the sky
Or ruler from on high.
I am that I am.
Not some power in the sky
Or ruler from on high.
I am.

My cup overfloweth ‘cause what’s it’s made of and what I fill it with.
I am.
Track Name: Existential Dilemma
Lyrics:

What makes this reality
Any different from a dream?
Well, maybe the truth is
That things aren’t always what they seem.
Is what I’m seeing really there
Or just a chemical reaction in my brain?
‘Cause when I dream I see things too
And I can swear that I can even feel pain.

Oh is this world more real
Because it’s more consistent
With universal norms like time and gravity?
I guess the question is, can I exist without it?
Can it exist without me?

The body is a suit of senses that relays
Outside information to the brain
How can I trust it to tell me what is true
When I know that other creatures
Can see and hear and feel more than I do?

Oh is this world so real
Because it’s so consistent
With hearing, sight, and touch
Smell, and taste?
I wonder what’s out there
That I’m not picking up on.
And does it matter any way?

It’s so crazy how
We’re all connected
But we don’t know how.

Where do I stop?
Where does the universe begin?
I cannot clearly tell the difference.
I cannot feel the cells in side my body I,
I cannot feel the moon revolve around me.
Or maybe I can
In ways that I don’t understand.

What make this reality? What is reality?
Track Name: Off the Tracks
Lyrics:

I’m having trouble
Seeing your logic
In all of this
I’m not stupid, no
I’m quite educated, so
If your evidence makes sense
Then I should follow

How can you ever move forward
If your thinking’s always backwards
How can you ever move forward
If your thinking’s always backwards
How can you move at all?

By now you’ve convinced yourself
That what you think is true
Regurgitating the same old phrases,
Copouts to consider anything new
But if you really cared
You’d open your ears
And hear what others have to say
Give yourself more than one option to weigh

Your train of thought
Has been running on
The same fuel for way too long
Pretty soon, you’ll just be running on fumes
And well, your train’s run of the tracks
Derailed ‘round all the facts
Missing the scenery as you ware a ring
From the circles that you’ve been running in

How can you ever move forward
If your thinking’s always backwards
How can you ever move forward
If your thinking’s always backwards
How can you move at all?
Tell me how can you, can you move at all?
Track Name: Wake Up
Lyrics:

Where can you go when there’s no place left that’s free?
And words written long ago, primitive ideas,
Keep us from moving on, And stuck in stagnant circles.
Round and round through time.

When nothing is sacred, what can you keep?
Paper I-owe-you notes turn everything into commodities.
People sell their lives away to be able to survive.
And nature is worth more when it’s dead, than when it is alive.
We all just live to die.

So wake up, wake up, brothers and sisters.
We’ll put our forefathers away.
Wake up, wake up, brothers and sisters.
Start a dawning of a new day.
A dawning of a new day.

Too many times has injustice risen, when we could have taken a stand.
With our awareness, it’s time to unite, and bring others to understand
That we can live free, once again.

So wake up, wake up, brothers and sisters.
We’ll put our forefathers away.
Wake up, wake up, brothers and sisters.
Start a dawning of a new day.

A dawning of a new, new day.
Track Name: Spider Song
Lyrics:

The spider climbs down the wall
I know I love him most of all
Of all the people in this room
Where he ended up

How he got here
He doesn’t know
He kind of just goes with the flow
Of food and shelter
So it goes
They’re the only
Thing he needs

And I hope nobody
Finds him there
Minding his own affairs
‘Cause he’s got fangs
Eight eyes and legs
Drinks blood
And spins webs

And we don’t do well
With those different
From ourselves
And we don’t give a chance
To what we don’t understand
No we don’t
No we don’t

I caught the spider
In a glass
To spare him from
The bumbling mass
Of people who would smash a thing
So delicate and sweet

For being in their conquered space
So sanitized and put in place
I had to leave without a trace
To set the creature free

But when I got back inside
They must have seen me
‘Cause I could have cried

When they laughed
At my act
To save the little spider’s life

‘Cause we don’t do well
With those different
From ourselves
And we don’t give a chance
To what we don’t understand
No we don’t
No we don’t

Oh…

Last night I had a dream
Wherein my skin was green
And everybody else’s red
I was mortified and so I tried to hide
But they were colorblind
So I got to keep my head

Then a spider came
And carried me away
On his web of magic thread
To the moon we fled
And watched all the little ants
Who were people
Who just didn’t understand
Track Name: Follow Your Bliss
Lyrics:

I wanna sleep under the shad tree
Don’t wanna be bothered by anybody
I wanna talk, talk to the flowers
For hours, and hours, and hours

And I wanna laugh, laugh like a child
‘Cause that’s what makes
This life all worthwhile

And I don’t care if it’s socially unacceptable
And I don’t care if everyone else is a square
And I’m the only circle

I wanna paint a picture on the wall
Even though I don’t know much about painting at all
I wanna write a conscious song
That makes people think when they sing along

And I wanna do all the things they think I can’t
I wanna live, live my life
My life to the fullest

And I don’t care if it’s socially unacceptable
And I don’t care if everyone else is a square
And I’m the only circle

Well they might think I’m crazy
But they just don’t understand
That what is the norm
Is not necessarily right
Just a concept thought up by the man

Oh follow your bliss
Only you can know what it is
Don’t pay attention
To all of the distractions

Bread and circus is not the way to live life
Bread and circus keeps us slaves of the mind
Bread and circus is not the way to live life
Bread and circus keeps us slaves of the mind

Oh follow your bliss
Only you can know what it is
Follow your bliss
Follow your bliss
Track Name: Sweet Music
Lyrics:

Mama said
Grow up and be a doctor
And Teacher said
College is the only way
To succeed in life
And make it right
With a car
And a house
And nice things to put inside
But, child said I wanna be an artist
Child said I wanna make music instead
I don’t need all of those
Things that you say
Just some food
And some clothes
And a place to lay my head, ‘cause

Wherever I go
I’m gonna make that sweet music
Wherever I go
I’m gonna make that sweet music
Wherever I go
I’m gonna make that sweet music, babe

Well times get rough
And times get rougher but
I can’t keep waiting for
Things to get better
All I have is this present moment
And by God, I’ll be damned
If I let it go wasted

When I’m feeling blue
I know just what to do
I’ll sit back and make myself a little tune ‘cause
I’ve got two hands
That can make drums from tables
And as long as I’m breathing
I know that
My voice is able

Wherever I go
I’m gonna make that sweet music
Wherever I go
I’m gonna make that sweet music
Wherever I go
I’m gonna make that sweet music, babe
Track Name: Euphoria
Lyrics:

Did the city lights ever shine so bright
As they do tonight?
At the top of the world, they seem so insignificant
Next to you, in my mind.

Cold-burning-energy runs up my spine.
My mind is running laps, and I am paralyzed.
I want you to understand what I am feeling,
But how can one describe Euphoria?
Oh, oh, oh, Euphoria.


On the floor, we lye face to face.
We are clothed, but I feel naked.
Your eyes are brown, but they burn like an ember,
Through my body, and into my being.

Cold-burning-energy runs up my spine.
My mind is running laps, and I am paralyzed.
I want you to understand what I am feeling,
But how can one describe Euphoria?

Oh, oh, oh, Euphoria.

No, I don’t believe in fate.
No, I don’t believe in predestination.
But I know this is as good as it gets.
And I will take the invitation.

This is as close as it gets to divinity.
A Euphoric connection between you and me.
I don’t believe in souls, but I know that there is energy.
And if we channel it, we can create love spiritually.

I’ve waited for this moment for so long.
I won’t let it slip away.
I promise, if you promise to stay,
I will stay. I will stay.
I will stay.

Did the city lights ever shine so bright
As they do tonight?
Track Name: Home
Lyrics:

Time goes by
In the blink of an eye
It doesn’t seem that long
Since we first met
Sang our first duet
Since we first said
I love you

And it’s true
That I still do
More and more everyday
I don’t believe that people are made for each other
But somehow
We found a way

Time goes by
And I will try
To spend my time with you
You’re my best friend
My favorite person
My confidence
My bliss

Well, they say home is where
The heart is
And I’ve come to believe that it’s true
‘Cause no matter where we end up
My baby
I’m always at home
When I’m with you

And it’s true
That I still do
Love you
I do
Love
You
Track Name: Ego
Lyrics:

I’m always having to
Tell my ego to
Shut the hell up
She’s always getting in the way
Trying to take
All the credit for
All of the creative things that
I’m involved with
Trying to impress
Everyone else
To feel good about herself

She doesn’t know
But I know
True validation
Doesn’t come from outside
It comes from within
And I am not my body
I’m not my mind
I’m only using them for a short time

My ego tries to get me to
Associate with my surroundings
With titles and stereotypes
And all kinds of material things
She’s her job, she’s her car, she’s her clothes
Her reflection in the mirror
She’s a singer, she’s a scholar
She’s a hippie, she’s a stoner
She’s a middle class daughter

She doesn’t know
But I know
True validation
Doesn’t come from outside
It comes from within
And I am not my body
I’m not my mind
I’m only using them for a short time

Mind, body, spirit
I need all three to be fit
Mind, body, spirit
I need all three for a higher
For a higher
Consciousness

And I’m gonna find the balance
I’m gonna find the balance
I’m gonna find the balance, the balance
I’m gonna find the balance

The spirit is the consciousness
That’s supposed to fuel the mind
The mind’s supposed to tell the body
What to do in time
But in this consciousless society
We’re living in
Time controls the body
And the ego mind with in
And the sprit’s just an echo on the wind

I’m always having to
Tell my ego to
Shut the hell up
Track Name: Gate to the Garden
Lyrics:

She walked out
Out of the Garden
She felt afraid
She felt desire
But first, she felt, she was alone

She was disconnected
From the source from which all life flows
Illusions of duality
Create separate forms

She walked down
Down to the river
She looked in
Saw her own reflection
And then she fell
She fell in love

She was disconnected
From the source from which all life flows
Illusions of duality
Create separate forms
Me and you
Right and wrong
Man and nature
Man and God

She walked down to the valley
To pick some flowers for her watery love
And when the darkness of night
Fell upon the earth
She heard mystical howls
And the wolves, they came
And chased her away

She ran far from the scene
In circles, so it seemed
Out of sight and out of mind
And when she came to raise her head
She looked up at the gate

The gate, gate to the garden
Impenetrable as it was
She knew the secret
She shed her skin
And she walked back in

All is impermanent
All is with out a self

When she was back in the garden
She was no longer afraid
She felt no more desire
She was one with everything